And then it was done. I walked through each empty room and said goodbye. I thanked the building for being our home, our playground, our “clubhouse”. I thanked it for protecting us from storms, keeping us warm in the winter and cool in the summer. I hugged the infamous pole in the center of the group room and stood on my stage for one last time. Then, I sat down on the stage and cried. Change can be a challenge, but a necessity of life. With every ending, comes a new beginning … it’s time for this little phoenix to spread her wings and soar.
Nine years ago, I set out on a mission … a mission to make an impact on the lives of as many people as I could touch, and I have impacted many. I became known as one of the best at what I do. As a fitness trainer, group exercise instructor, wellness coach, President and Director of Operations of Core Fitness, Inc., I excelled. I reached each and every goal I set out to attain. I won awards, sure, but more importantly, I CHANGED LIVES. I’ve helped hundreds of people lead healthier and happier lives, drop weight, shed fat, shred muscle, and embrace a healthy, well-balanced and realistic lifestyle. As my mom told me with a cute, sweet and simple greeting card, “You did good.”
I’m not aborting my mission. In fact, my mission hasn’t changed at all. It has simply transformed … it’s blossomed onto a bigger and broader scale. I want to touch the lives of thousands … millions even!
And my goals?
Are now intentions.
And those intentions?
Are becoming my reality.
I’m ready to take on the world.
Eight weeks ago, almost to the day, I decided it was time to take MASSIVE action in my life. The time had come to live life for ME. To honor what my spirit, my soul, my mind, hell even my BODY was crying for …
It hit me as I was leaving my studio after an amazing yoga class in my fitness studio. I felt so funky as I was getting into my car. I felt reeeeeally heavy … like strangely sluggish and in slow motion. I started driving home, but just a few minutes into my drive my phone rang. It was one of my closest friends and she was back at the studio. I asked her if she wanted a coffee … I stopped to grab us some and then turned my car around.
I needed a friend to talk to.
And there she was.
I think not.
I didn’t know what I needed to talk about, or why I was feeling the way I was. When I returned to the studio, I just looked at her and told her that I needed to talk. I told her that I felt “heavy”. And then we talked for hours.
She was exactly the person I needed to talk to, at exactly the right time. Crazy how the Universe works that way, isn’t it?! And out of our cloud of conversing, came the sun shining through … like a diamond in the ruff …
It was time.
She said it, so that I didn’t have to …
“You have to close the studio.”
For the very first time (and don’t think this topic hasn’t come up in conversation before, after nine years of running the business in what is quite possibly the WORST economy the United States has ever seen), I had no resistance to the suggestion. I didn’t get angry, or defensive, or even the least bit uncomfortable at her statement. In fact, what I felt instead was an overwhelming sense of peace. The heaviness lifted like a fog being burned off by the sun. There was no other answer. There was no other option. There was no fight to be fought. It was what it was …
I was done.
It wasn’t until I was on my ACTUAL drive home that it dawned on me. The day before, almost 24 hours prior to the minute, I was driving and out of literally nowhere (because I honestly just don’t do this very often), I asked God, the Universe, my angels, spirit guides, whoever and whatever was out there listening, if I was on the right path. And my answer?
Cue the crickets.
Nada. Nothing, Nil.
So then I simply said, “Well, if I’m supposed to do something, someone just let me know, okay?”
I remember thinking to myself that I wanted clarity. I wanted to truly KNOW without an ounce of doubt that I was doing what I was supposed to be doing with my life.
And I remember being a little pissy that I didn’t get an answer.
But the answer did come, albeit not until a day later. And “someone” DID let me know what I was supposed to do, didn’t she?
Ask and you shall receive. Quite literally! And this law of the Universe is infallible. The question is: what are YOU asking for? With each and every thought you have, every word you utter, you are placing your order with the Universe. The Law of Attraction doesn’t understand “don’t” or “won’t” or “can’t” or any other negative statement you might put out into the ethers. It only hears what you’re focusing on.
For example, if you’re saying to yourself (or aloud), while you’re driving like a bat outta Hell to get somewhere, “I can’t be late! I can’t be late!” All the Universe is hearing is “be late” because that is your focus point. Make sense?
So, switch it up a little with a re-frame: “I must be on time,” or “I am on time,” or even better, “I am ALWAYS on time!”
So, I’ve simply decided to change my order on the menu of the Universe, and so can you. It’s a beautiful thing, this freewill of ours. And trust me, if I can do it, you can do it too.
Yes, it was uncomfortable … change often is.
Yes, it threw me off kilter for a couple of weeks … big life shifts don’t come without their growing pains, but I grew exponentially!
Yes, it uprooted and upset a bunch of people … they’ll get over it.
And yes, I lost some clients, and unfortunately some friends … what remains now is my true TRIBE.
Were the risks and consequences worth it?
You better believe it.
I spent more time within the walls of my business than my house, often working five to nine (not a typo), six to seven days a week and logging up to eighty-five hours per week at my peak, and I loved almost every minute of it.
Until I didn’t anymore.
Do I have any regrets walking away from what had literally been my home of nine years?
Walking away from the confines of my brick and mortar business allows me to now truly live my life and my calling.
If you are unhappy, in any aspect of your own life (your health, your relationships, your career, ANYTHING!), I implore you to MAKE. A. CHANGE. Any change will do. Take a leap of faith or maybe even just a step in the right direction, but please do something in the direction of your happiness … YOUR true calling.
Happiness is a choice. Period.
I’ve lost count of how many people have said to me over the past couple of months how “lucky” I am to be living my dream, and how they wish they could do the same.
I can assure that “luck” has NOTHING to do with this, my friend. I made a conscious decision, and a very difficult one at that, to DO something about my unhappiness. To LISTEN to my heart and FOLLOW my soul’s path in life.
Life is not a dress rehearsal, this I’m confident you’ve heard before, but it’s one thing to “hear” it and another thing to let it really sink into your being.
Let’s just say, for me?
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