By Joy Perugini | Real and Raw

Feb 27

butterflyI’m melting away.

Literally turning to goo from the inside out.

Not melting like the Wicked Witch of the West… more like a caterpillar in its cocoon.

Caterpillars turn almost completely into goo before their transformation into a butterfly. I’m not kidding… during metamorphosis within the cocoon, they release enzymes that almost entirely digest their own body, and that’s not even the craziest part! The REALLY crazy part is that researchers have proven that the butterfly that emerges actually retains some of its memories from when it was a caterpillar.

Wait a minute…


Are you following this???

The caterpillar literally turns to SOUP inside of its cocoon, and not only does it emerge as a completely different entity all together, but when it emerges as the butterfly, it actually REMEMBERS things from its past experience as a caterpillar.

And honestly, that’s the best way that I can explain what I’ve been going through as of late. Actually, it’s been going on for a while now. There’s a big difference between the person I am today and the person that I was just a couple of years ago, but I still feel like I’m the puddle of goo in the cocoon, memories of who I was intact, still waiting to emerge in all of my intended beauty.

As much as this is physically true, more importantly it is emotionally and spiritually true.

It’s so easy to get lost in the soupiness. It’s so easy to just want to chill here in limbo inside of my cozy little cocoon. But even in here where I’m safe and warm (although a little scared because I’m turning to goo, lest we forget), I know that there’s work to be done because eventually this little butterfly will emerge, and when she does, she will be the most beautiful, bright, light literal FORCE of love to be reckoned with, and she needs to be ready to FLY!

So here I am, plodding along through my sticky, ooey gooeyness, doing what needs to be done physically, mentally and emotionally to ensure that when this cocoon cracks open, I. am. ready.

While hanging out here in this hallowed space, I’ve become very, very, VERY clear on what I want (that’s the first step, ya know). I have fully tuned-in in order to hear the message of my heart and what its greatest desires are, and I’ve come to the realization that everything that I want, ALL of my desires, are already on their way to me, because before I asked?

I was answered.

I need to only to expect my good to come to me, act “as if” it is already here, and allow myself to surrender. In fact, just this weekend provided an incredible example of this…

I’m not at liberty to share details, but I will tell you this much: Someone I have been holding space for, someone I have been sending so much healing, loving light to and praying for (and for quite some time now) had a miraculous breakthrough in their life, and I swear it’s because I finally released any sense of “ownership” and control centered around the situation. I have wrecked myself with worry for years over this given situation (which of course I know serves NO ONE), but it wasn’t until I completely relinquished control, forgave and fully SURRENDERED, that the situation healed itself with no effort on my part whatsoever.

It’s so easy in theory to know that you need to “let go,” but it’s another thing altogether to actually do it (not to mention, do it right). And when it’s something that you are emotionally invested in, it can be even more of a challenge. As an empath and healer, it’s pretty easy for me to help my clients and loved ones release in the process of healing, but when it’s my own burden to carry?

Yeah, totally different story.

(Especially when you’re a reformed control freak, who’s very Type A and just a touch OCD!)

BUT, once I get out of my own way, throw my hands up and say, “I SURRENDER!” it opens the way for the Universe and its endless resources to take over and work its literal magic in my life. (Now, to just get myself surrendering before the shit hits the fan!)

So yes, I’ve learned how to literally call-in my “perfect for me,” ideal, ALIGNED life and all that comes along with it (and so much of this has come from discovering how to properly surrender). Not only has much of my dream life already begun to show itself in my reality, but there have been so many (too many) divine synchronicities and signs that it is virtually IMPOSSIBLE for me to have a shred of doubt that it is ALL coming to me now, in perfect ways and under grace.

Of course, being human and all, the doubt occasionally creeps in. The sadness sometimes takes over. Remember, it can get pretty dark in here, in my little cocoon, and sometimes I’m a little afraid of the dark, but it never lasts long. As soon as I think I’m going to get swallowed up by the darkness, the light at the end of the tunnel inevitably shows itself again (it NEVER fails), but I need to be awake, alert and open enough to see it.

I promise you, the signs that you’re on the right path are abundant and always visible to the eyes that are willing to look for them, but look we must. We must, must, MUST do our part and have FAITH (even the littlest amount will do). I realize that sometimes that’s more easily said than done, but I assure you that it’s never impossible… not even when you’re turned into goo.

For the ladies out there, there is a unique opportunity for you to take a HUGE leap forward on the path towards the life of your dreams, filled with all of your heart’s greatest desires, and it’s happening THIS WEEKEND! Step into a sacred circle of sisterhood and allow me, and a few of my favorite earth angel friends, to hold space for you… this is a chance for you to HEAL from the past, for you to EXPAND into the moment, for you to CONNECT and PLUG-IN to the universal flow for a brighter future. It’s time for you to become the GODDESS that you truly are. Just click right here for all of the details.


About the Author

Joy M. Perugini is an Shaman, Energy Healer, Intuitive and Entrepreneur. She finds her passion in helping others connect to their soul-led lives through energetic healing and clearing, chakra balancing, mindful movement (dance, yoga and functional fitness classes), guided meditations and intuitive readings. Her twenty-seven years of diverse experience in the health and wellness industry include establishments throughout the continental United States and Hawaii. Her Bachelor of Science degree in Health Science with a concentration in Exercise Science and Sports Medicine, provides a strong knowledge-base to her work. Joy started as a student athletic trainer at Eastern College in Pennsylvania and interned at a physical therapy center treating sports related injuries. During a two-year residency on Maui, Hawaii, Joy served as the Lead Fitness Trainer at the Grand Wailea Resort and Spa, rated the #1 Resort Spa in the World by Conde Nast Magazine. Joy’s tenure there increased her knowledge of the spa industry and importance of customer care. Joy was born and raised in West Hartford, CT and returned there as an in-home personal trainer, helping many clients achieve their wellness goals. She later managed a health and fitness center for a major international corporation based in Hartford, CT. Feeding her entrepreneurial spirit, Joy opened a boutique group exercise and personal training studio located in Plainville, CT, in June 2006. The studio offered customized training to individuals of all fitness levels and abilities, and housed a distinctively friendly atmosphere in an industry known to intimidate many. While still running the day to day activities at the studio, in 2014 Joy decided to expand her reach and spread her love of life, fitness, health and wellness far and wide by forming her web-based company, JoyFit Nation, LLC. Today, Joy spreads insight and inspiration by sharing her message online and in person via her signature programs, retreats, workshops and private sessions.

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